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I actually had this experience more than twice due to the circumstances of my transition.AOLI initially started my transition at AOL where I was doing tech support and started by talking to the head of HR. He was very supportive and he had several private meetings with me to discuss how we would move forward. This was actually very good. I wanted this to go as smoothly as possible and be the least traumatic of a situation as possible for me and for my co workers.We had set a plan for when and how to tell my direct supervisor and my teammates and HR would make a general statement informing people of non discrimination policies. So far, so good! Better than I expected even.Then tragedy struck.Somehow my direct supervisor found out about my plan to come out without me or HR telling her yet. I had no reason beforehand to believe she was biased against transgender people but boy did she surprise me. My supervisor waited until the head of HR was out of town on a business trip and a temp was covering for him. She knew the head of HR would never sign off on her plan normally.Then she cooked up a phony story about my stats not meeting the metrics and used that as an excuse to fire me. I had never been written up, warned or disciplined for my stats before. The stats in question that she used as the excuse were outside of the guidelines they wanted us to meet, that is true. What she did not mention to the temp was the entire department was not meeting those stats because the expectation was set too high.I actually began to cry. I asked her"Why are you doing this? This isn't right. I can't possibly have the worst stats on our team I have seen the team stats!".Everything I said fell on deaf ears. I asked to speak to HR and she told me the other person in the room was HR. I told her I wanted to speak to the head of HR and it was then she told me he was out of town and this woman I had never seen was from a temp agency while he was gone for business. It was then I realized what she had done. She knew this firing would never have gotten by him. She knew it was outside policy but here she had a temp that would gladly sign off anything she handed her and assume the supervisor was following procedure as long as it at least looked proper.Out of 20 metrics 3 were outside of the ideal and only marginally. Every single team in our project was off on those particular stats. She fired no one else that day even though my stats were not even close to being the worst. In fact some of my stats were the highest in the project. My customer satisfaction rates were consistently in the top 10 the entire time I worked there. I had awards to prove it!The Temporary HR person new almost nothing about the job having only been there for 3 days and rubber stamped the firing. I was sent out into the rain to take a bus home. I distinctly remember staring out into the busy road in the rain and thinking about stepping forward each time a semi truck began to pass me at 40mph in front of the bus stop.WALMARTMy transition had just started, I had begun HRT and laser hair removal but was not confident with my ability to pass as female yet. So when I started to look for work I did such as a guy. I got a job at Walmart when my unemployment ran out and eventually decided to tell them about the transition. Most people were okay with it. The General Manager for the store asked me to sit in on the morning Supervisor meeting to share that I would be transitioning to all of them. One of them did not take it well.My direct supervisor was openly hostile to me. I don’t know if it was due to some kind of internalized homophobia or bias he held but he acted VERY strange. He took me aside during my shift the next day and berated me about me being in the meeting the day before.He told me that…“You don’t talk about something like that!” “You don’t just go and announce something like that!” “Why did you feel the need to go and tell everyone you are transgender?”I tried to explain to him that I informed management that I would be coming to work under my new name and that I would be presenting myself as female. I told him it was the GM’s idea that I talk to the staff meeting. Not mine.He spent the next few weeks finding every excuse he could to chew into me or get me fired. It didn’t work. I was flawless in my job performance. He had no cause. It was during one specific instance where I asked him to clarify some unclear requests he had made that he blew up. He had given me a list of things that needed to be done but some of them contradicted each other and I asked him over to clarify.He went off on me on the front line by the registers and in full view of customers and employees. He said I was “such a baby” and asked me “Why do I need to explain this! You are not a child! Figure it out yourself!” “Why are you bothering me?”He was visibly unhinged. His behavior and his body language left me scared. The next day I reported it to the GM and he pulled the surveillance tapes for that night. The next day he was fired. It was obvious even from a silent tape the way he was gesticulating at me and the way I was cringing back that he was out of line. The other management rode me harder until I quit that job. I got what I hoped would be a better job doing tech support again. Walmart marked my file as “Not Eligible for Rehire” even though I had no disciplinary marks on my file and I gave 2 weeks notice.AFNIMy next job was at AFNI doing customer service and tech support. I applied as a male because again I passed better as male and I did not yet have identification in my female name or gender. I was still on Hormone Replacement Therapy and taking other transition steps but it was not very obvious yet. A double layer of loose shirts and keeping a scruffy beard hid any changes.I worked there for almost 6 months before telling them about my transition. This put me outside of the “New Hire Period” and meant that company policy required more reason to fire me. During the first few months it was policy that you could be fired at any time with or without cause. Technically by AZ state law this was true anyhow but the company required more evidence before firing tenured employees. (In customer service turnover is so high 6 months is tenured.)I was making less than half what I made at AOL and couldn't find a better job. I suspected someone was leaving bad referrals for me at AOL but could never prove it.As I began my transition on the job at this new company things got worse. Once I left for lunch only to find someone had scrawled across my desk in big pink marker..."Sissy faggot bitch"Or something to that effect, time is beginning to erase the memory but it tore me in half at the time. The words stung me like a hot knife. I felt like I was being bullied at school all over again. How could adults act like this? I found one of the supervisors that I knew would be my ally here as I knew he was gay and reported it to him. He was as pissed as me and despite a serious effort to find the culprit somehow no one had seen someone write in 6 inch tall letters this huge graffiti across my desk. Bullshit, someone knew they just didn't care. Jr. High all over again.I tried to continue reporting any further harassment and began to practice voice training so I could sound more feminine on the phone and in life. It turned out I was very good at it. Before long every customer said miss or mam to me and I never got called sir. Passing on the phone was a huge thing for me and I still remember my first Valentines Day at work. Guys get weird but in a cute way on Valentines Day. They suddenly gush out affection for even random women they talk to on the phone. I can only guess it is practice for their girlfriends later. Anyhow that was when I knew I was passing. The warm, happy Valentine’s day comments, the kind words and almost flirty sound to their voices was shocking. I actually prefer women to men but the effect of being fawned on was still not lost on me. It really did feel special.Another example of the harassment I received at work was this... During a monitored call one of the people that assesses our calls gave a horrible review of my call. They particularly gave me the lowest possible score on tone of voice and language used on the call. Everything else was rated at middle of the road or worse. What they didn't know was the client Verizon Wireless randomly monitored that exact same call. Their monitors gave me a perfect score for the exact same call! Same day, same time and same customer telephone number. It was clear that someone was not judging me on my performance but on my transition. The tone of voice being rated at 1 on a scale of 10 was a symbol of their disapproving of what they considered to be a "boy" that sounds so much like a woman. The disparity between the client loving my call and telling my supervisor it was one of the best they had heard and the monitors report made it clear to everyone I was being targeted. Yet no one was fired but now my calls were being reviewed by a new monitor instead.In other instances at that workplace I had my mouse remotely being controlled by one of the reviewers. (They can take over your mouse or keyboard.) They made my mouse go in circles and made it so I could not click on what I needed to in order to do my job. Problems continued.Then one day I was asked to go to HR by a manager I didn’t know. The HR officer had a very small office with two chairs tightly squeezed in there. I was told to sit in the seat furthest from the door and the supervisor sat next to me. Things were so tight that I literally could not get up or leave unless that supervisor (a very big man) got up or I climbed over his lap.The HR rep told me it was time for me to part ways with the company. He put a paper that said “Voluntary Resignation Form” in front of me and said I was not leaving the office until I signed it. I tried to ask why I was being fired he would not discuss it. I asked him why he was forcing me to sign this paper, again he refused to explain. Eventually trapped by two large men I signed the paper but not without fighting back.One of the reasons they tried to get me to sign the paper was made clear later.When I applied for unemployment I was told I was denied because I had quit voluntarily. She said that AFNI had sent the paperwork over proving such. I told her to look over the form very carefully. I told her I was forced into signing it so I made it clear on the form that this was not voluntary.^RecreationThe woman on the phone began to laugh. She said, “That was very clever. I’ve had people claim they were forced into signing these things before but they had no way to prove it. You are the first one I saw that did.”. I got my unemployment but she didn’t pursue the thing any further than that.I could have sued AFNI for what they did. The paper was in my file at unemployment and their actions were undefendable but at the time I was trying not to end up homeless even with the unemployment and I was in the middle of a mental breakdown. Three jobs now I had tried to transition at and at three jobs I was fired. It seemed the whole world was against me. I didn’t have the energy or fortitude to fight that kind of fight. I didn’t even know if a lawyer would take my case. I had tried to fight the AOL firing earlier and had no luck finding a lawyer.See, it still is not illegal, to this day 15 years later, to fire a person for being transgender in AZ and no federal prohibition exists.An employer can literally walk down the aisle of their business asking each employee if they are transgender and then if they say yes, fire them on the spot. Such is completely legal. Even if the employee said no and the employer felt they looked like they might be transgender they can fire them for being suspected of being transgender. Same thing if they refused to answer. In fact it is totally legal to just go down a list of names and write tranny next to some of them and fire them. There just is no law in most states and no federal law.This is why we need the Employment Non-Discrimination Act.This day Nov 20th is Transgender Day of Remembrance is often a very sad one for me. I decided this year to spend it by answering questions about Transgender Issues and raising awareness of the issues involved. This Addendum will be at the bottom of all of the answers I write today.

BTS are intriguing at first because as idols from a popular boy band they are not what you'd expect them to be.They don't fit many of the stereotypes of being an idol, and that makes them very unique in an industry where one would expect performers to dress in a certain style or look a certain way in order to be popular. BTS has never quite fit the idol mold. They look like regular guys in comparison to the more glammed up idol boy groups that tend to be the rage. In fact many members have been criticized because their appearance doesn't fit Korean idol beauty standards. And yet they are all extremely attractive.It gives them an edge because in a fabricated industry they seem extremely genuine and more down to earth. Out of costume they look like guys that can be your neighbors, making them seem less distant than you would normally expect superstars to be. But that doesn't in any way mean they are ordinary.All of them have amazing talents they excel at and unique quirks that add to that realness. Their message is for fans to love themselves and they too share as much as they are able of themselves and their struggles in their music. They also are masters of social media showing the mundane parts of their lives to their fans. So this connection makes fans feel very special and involved. Their music is also very meaningful and they use it to talk about important social issues and the struggles and thoughts of their every day lives.This is important because it's very rare to find a group that creates such a deep connection to real people with their music especially in Kpop an industry that is known for being very much about image and selling a fantasy. They use a medium that is supposed to be fabricated to be creative and spread a genuine message about issues that matter to them and they do it by experimenting with many kinds of music and themes which allows them to signNow even more people. Also they write and produce their own music adding to the realness factor.On top of being very real, their music and the way their concepts are put together is done very artfully. Something people don't normally expect from popular music is substance. Kpop is honestly full of it, and there are many groups who are artsy but artsy can turn people away, depending on tastes. The videos that get the most views do tend to be the catchy ones and the concepts usually are chosen because they look cool. Same with music in the west, honestly. For this reason Kpop artists tend to play it safe sticking to concepts that will be liked by broad audiences and shying away from anything too deep.BTS not only avoids playing it safe, they take it a step further and incorporate artistry in many of their concepts in very unique ways. Thus they are known for being “over the top". Their entire Wings short films are basically a modern art piece compilation. As is the storyline style of their music video compilation for The Most Beautiful Moment In Life Series. Having storylines that interconnect in music videos in a fictional universe is a very creative concept that works to make even their less artsy videos more meaningful and it takes the symbolism beyond the realm of “just there because it's cool".But even their more catchy sounding stuff and dance videos can show immense creativity. For example their song Idol has a mashup of global elements including African dance and yet a very heavy theme of Korean symbolism at the same time showing their roots and yet responding to criticism about their globalization and how they are apparently not Korean enough. It also has a lot of wordplay that can only be understood by Koreans. This is incredibly creative and very innovative concept for a Kpop music video. And of course very experimental. They aren't afraid to think out of the box.They also aren't afraid to learn as much as they can and incorporate it into their musical expression. When they debuted they were a hip hop group who participated in a show called American Hustle Life where they were mentored by icons of hip hop like Coolio and Warren G and even trained by various experts like Dr. Iris Stevenson who composed music for Sister Act. Where have you ever heard of a group from another country doing anything like that? And they used the experience to change their music style and make it less about image and more true to the message they wanted to spread. RM the leader also writes many songs from inspiration he finds in books and movies and many of their designs concepts take inspiration from classical literature such as Damien and Those Who Walk Away From Omelas. Suga is a lyrical genius who puts his life experiences into his verses and uses his professional knowledge of music to compose beautiful songs. All the members are all very cultured and over time they have always used their learning experiences to create music that signNowes people of all ages and all backgrounds and any time they have been offensive they take it as learning experience and improve.This realness is something that makes them very human and instead of seeing them as famous people making music many fans see BTS as more like people they can relate to and cheer for. And in their songs their lyrics are like direct communication, always reffering to ARMY, thanking them, wondering about our struggles. And they are always doing their best to give their fans a good example by working hard and of course speaking out on important issues and with their UNICEF campaign.This doesn't mean BTS has been the only group to do any of the above. Despite Kpop being mostly a fabricated industry many artists have addressed social issues in their music. And of course many are involved in charity. But due to the nature of the industry these groups often get overshadowed by more shiny and cool and catchy concepts and they rarely make it big. There are exceptions of course. But BTS has been one of the few to come from basically being nobodies to making it big without getting rid of their realness so they can be accepted and without getting rid of their meaningful and controversial lyrics in favor of catchy ones that would be more appealing. In fact they are very blatant in their statements, with some very controversial lyrics and callouts showing they are not going to just sing things because they sound good.They have not stopped experimenting and have refused to give up their Korean roots to be more appealing to Westerners and still somehow they made it huge internationally in countries that don't have a clue what they are singing.This is very important and it goes to show there is substance there. And it's very ironic because idols are often seen as products to consume. They basically give us (as much as they can of) themselves, their quirks, their worries and struggles and their music. Idols are also marketed as fantasy boyfriends and girlfriends to their fans and used to promote merchandise. And BTS are ironically still idols and they do all of that too, so it's ironic that while they are supposed to be a product of the industry, and while of course they can't show us everything about their real selves, they still have shown to be real enough and to spread a real message. And that realness resonates in everything they do and it attracts curious people to want to know about them. And what they find is ordinary guys with amazing talent using music in ways that only legends like the Beatles and others have been able to. They are basically using music to connect with people and to spread messages of universal love but also to criticize what needs to change. And they try to do their own part to help with positive change. Thus not only are they beautiful faces they are also beautiful humans.Which is why Time magazine recognized them as next generation leaders. And they have done so much to bring their culture and experiences to the rest of the world which is why they received their merit award in Korea.Usually when you hear why someone has a favorite boy band the answer you get is their music is catchy, or they are so hot or they dress so nice. With BTS you get all that and that's what draws people in at first but then you realize they are down to earth guys who worked hard to achieve their dreams, defying stereotypes and trying to use their music to make their world a slightly better place.And that's why so many of us ARMY stick around. And that's why they will be legends.Thanks for reading.

I'm Elizabeth, I'm a 35 yr old M-F trans woman. Being trans, having this unique quality has been both a nightmare and a blessing. It's something that I wish desperately was not innate, I would have so much rather been like all the "normal" people. But what's so odd, is that as much as I fought, hated and denied this I don't honestly think I would have it taken away (if it were even possible). I have known that I was a girl as far back as I can remember, ever since I had any conscious thoughts of self. I think I was probably 3 or 4. Back then it was not like it is now. Back then I was just me, I hadn't discovered yet that my physical self would never ever naturally match my inner self. I hadn't yet grown to understand the stigma, the fear and outright dislike for people like me that our culture has. I didn't yet know how many people that say they love and care about me that would walk away and turn their back on me because I wasn't what they wanted me to be. I didn't begin my transition until the age of 32. I spent about 25 years trying to not be what I was/am, hide what I was/am, and hate what I was/am. It was terrible, I don't know any other way to describe it. I wouldn't wish that type of existence on my worst enemy, it's too cruel. What's funny, is that most men, big burly tough men, would look at me and think that I'm some sissy weakling. Well I can tell you with certainty that none of those tough burly guys could handle even a week of what I dealt with. At about the age of 5 or so, my parents realized that I wasn't going through a phase... In the 80's this was not at all considered ok or really even known about. So they took parental action; we moved to a different part of the city, made me change schools, made me play sports, made me hang out with new people, punished me anytime I would act feminine, forced me into the church, etc... So in a months time I went from being me to this whole new life and expectation. It was so confusing, I didn't get why this was happening but as time passed I came to understand what their motivation for doing what they did. They thought that they could change me, they thought they could condition me to be the boy I was supposed to be... I did my best to please them, even grew to hate myself. I tried praying it away... That's how I learned there is no god or that if there is one, he's a dick. I grew to be very much internalized. I kept the real me hidden and everyday would project and portray a person I wasn't. I sank into depression, started abusing drugs and alcohol as a means of numbing it and essentially gave up on trying to be a happy productive person. I did graduate HS, got a bachelors degree in marketing and even managed to be pretty damn successful professionally. But it was all an act, I was never really there I just went through the motions. I even got married (ARGH!!!). It didn't even last a year... I told her about the real me well before marrying but like my parents she thought she could change me... Nope. I started seeing my therapist for gender dysphoria about 10 months into the marriage. We separated about 2 weeks after that and divorced about 3 months later. Not long after that I began hormones. So as far as sexual orientation goes... Transition or hormones never changed anything about me, they just made it easier for me to act on my interests. Early in life I only pursued girls, I was sincerely attracted to them so I didn't have to act. It's just that I would always come to realize that my interest in a girl was really me wanting to be around someone I saw as me. Intimacy was always not forced but it never ever was something that I really desired. During sex, I always had to mentally take myself to the place that really turned me on. You see, for boys during puberty they have what's described as "wet dreams", where they have sexual dreams. Now, none of the ones I had were ever "wet" per say, but in every sexual dream or subconscious intimate act was I never the male involved. I was always the girl being intimate with a boy. So when I was with girls, I had to mentally imagine that I was the girl in the act... It was weird. So as far as boys go, I was never uncomfortable with physical contact with boys, I could tell which ones were attractive and which ones were not and seeing them in various states of undress never repulsed me. I was never drawn to boys at this time or acted intimate with any. After about 5 months on hormones things began to change.  I'm not sure what exactly caused it, but one day I woke up and things had changed. That's the best way I can put it. I just knew that what I wanted was boys. It was just an internal "knowing". Transitioning won't turn you into a completely different person mentally. It does have effect on emotions and your body, but that's about it. It did drastically change my relationships with EVERYONE that I knew, which was the hardest thing to try to adapt to. My outlook on humanity became much more negative, my anxiety rose considerably, my daily routines changed and I lost a lot of friends. Now, all that being said, I am the happiest (with myself) that I have ever been. I know that I have made the right decision for my life, I just hate that my happiness has to have such a price (literally and figuratively). I'm the healthiest I've ever been, my depression has lifted considerably and I love who I see in the mirror now. I'm deep in transition, I feel like can handle whatever comes next. But I still have bouts of difficult dysphoria, I don't think ever goes away completely. And I still have much to learn.

Being grandson to holocaust survivors who eventually managed to escape Austria, I feel nothing towards Germany/Austria. My Grandmother hated Germany and Austria till her last day, her native language was German and her childhood memories were linked with that- it changed nothing for her. I feel her choice was natural and just. I know that people here would like to hear on how much it’s in the past, how much Germany today is different, and how German Jews (which are not ethnic Germans, but Semites, sometimes people actually need someone to tell them that) feel completely Germans (while we ar...

My relationship broke down after 3 and a half years, at the end I have been so traumatized and learned that he was a narcissist.He was highly educated and he presented himself as a caring, loving and trustworthy person. I am looking back now and everything has come to sense as how he has slowly lured me into his circle of living fully.I have learned that Narcissists don't even know themselves who they are. They thrive for opportunities and when you are there serving their purposes things will appear to be glossy and perfect.For 3 and a half years he showered me with morning and night text messages with the words "love you" but one thing I have noticed that he would never say "I"love you. So "love you" was just a slang of the conversation and It had no meaning and it became a pattern of my daily life.He could go on talking about his work, his family but he would not be concerned about my work, my day, my family and especially to my only daughter. I pointed out the problem to him however he didn't make any change, everything would be all about what he would like to do, to go, to be... I thought that he was only a self-centered person as we always said no one is perfect and those sweet day to night text messages made me overrule his selfishness. He could go on about other people’s children how extraordinary they are and not even mentioned anything about mine because my teen daughter is just a respectful and caring like all other ordinary girls. I used to tell him everyone is different and with children you need to let them be who they are, we are adult to guide them to the right direction. I thought to make better relationship sometimes I need to compromise and not to create fights over things not necessary. I believe we all have differences that make us unique individual but they would not be the difficulties for two people to come together. I believe that if we both want things to work out, there’s always options and solutions. At the end of the day when I agreed to everything he preferred to do then life was cruising.Since he didn’t have a car I used to come to see him when time suitable for him two to three times a week. We were just 20 minutes away from each other. One year passed, I talked with him about our relationship status. He made excuses, saying that his financial position was unstable to make a move, his land and home he bought not even built yet. He did not plan the future and he kept just taking the face value of the present, why rush when we were happy just like that. I believed in him fully and we used to go to places and having wonderful times together. Two years then three years passed, he still preferred himself as a single person when talking with people, I asked him why and his answer was just saying I didn’t mean so. He never published our relationship on FB which I had the discussion with him about it and he had excuses for his professional life that no one would put their private life on FB, I let it go. With our social life, he would not go out with my friend circle or go to places I preferred because he was not interested in but when to do with his activities I was easy going because I would like to experience new things, new places and I loved to be with him to have our quality time together. We shared our expenses and he never had to worry if I asked him for gift. He never got me flowers even though I said I loved flowers.He had a better job in IT at 2 and half years of our relation, he got a new car and his family from overseas came over to Australia staying for months. I have always been respectful to his family and treating them well. He became so busy with his work and family so we had less time for each other. Months after, the intimacy declined gradually, I felt insecure and had a talk about it, he said he was tired from work and his house but he loved me and his proof was that we went to India together to see his family so everyone knew about me so I should not worry about and that he committed to me enough. Regarding moving in together, he said it would be radical to live separately till my daughter become independent and have her own life, it would be better for our relation and my house now is too far for him. He would not even offer me to move in with him rather than to have someone else shared at his rented apartment.He used to storm off when he got angry when I discussed about matters that made me unhappy in the relation, times and times it became a pattern to me so I got used to it. He would then come back calling me with those sweet words and I would get over of being upset, we made up and everything back to his circle. One day, there was an disagreement when I asked him to sign a rent free letter for me so I can get an investment loan, he then dumped me a few hours later over the phone, even though I said not to worry about the favor I asked and I would not go ahead with the investment loan application. Weeks passing by, I did not hear anything from him and I came to realize he really meant the end of our relationship and so it was just like that. I collapsed and have been through trauma. I tried to convinced him to talk about it and he finally made it clear to me that he doesn't want to be in the relationship, he wants to travel and the decision is for me and better for me. He did not even give me any options, he decided for me and ended for me.I found Quora to express my feelings and experiences with the narcissist. After three and a half years relationship he just dumped me over the phone, I have been seeking for Psychologist to help me get myself back in one piece. I broke down times and times at work, hid in the toilet to cry out my pain. I broke down on the street tearing and asking hundred questions why and still I don’t know the answers. I was lost because I was now out of his orders, out of his routines and I didn’t know what to do. How much he made me believed in him was to the extend that I used to think this relationship would not break down unless I cheated on him.Does love just die overnight? he discarded me without consideration or reservation so I am now a lost soul. I walked down the memory lanes and asking how could I face it all again. I have scar on my leg from falling off the stool at his house when I was helping him to fix things in his house. How could I erase this scar? How could I trust people again. I have been agonizing every night and struggling to sleep, waking up times and asking if it’s real or just a dream. I felt the pain like a knife cut my heart sharp and deep that I could understand why some people could not make through it but chose to end it.Looking back at the whole picture, I suffered a loss and I now had a hole in my soul because of the training he gave me. Everything has been out of schedule since, things have been missing in my daily life since. How the narcissists can turn on and off their emotions just like that? Yes, they can because they always have plans for what to go ahead. I was there for his convenience and I was fulfilling his purposes. As soon as I pushed the right button he knew that the boundary had been signNowed and so he cut me off… sharp and deep.We question if the narcissists regret for what they did, the answer is "no". I heard nothing from him since but knowing that he is now happy and jolly posting in FB "live without excuses and travel without regret" just like if I was the problem stopping him from moving forward. Our friends were disgusted to know how he not even care about my feeling after the breakup by his FB posting about his new joyful plans.Did he mean love? Did he mean what he said to me all those years? Did all the things we did together mean anything to him? It’s a digital world here and everything just like data in the computer that he just hit the delete button to erase them. I also want to delete and that is to delete the pain that I’ve been nurturing since.I have wasted my years with this narcissist without knowing the existence of this kind. I never put myself first in the relationship and kept giving. So one day he just walked away and left me empty. It was a very big and unforgettable lesson in my life.Luckily, I have goods friends who have been checking on me, giving supports everyday, slapping my face to wake me up, they are making sure I am ok and getting through day by day. People like you with big heart are reading this post and feeling for me even we are not related. At the end of the day, I have got to know that “I have the gift of Goodbye from God not because I am hateful but it’s because I am faithful”. (TD Jake’s quote)

Yes, it very well could have. There are two factors to consider here, the first being evidence, or the apparent lack of it and the second being the definition of "civilization".The fact that we have not found evidence to this effect is not proof of such civilization(s) not having existed. We may simply have been looking in the wrong places. Earth has undergone changes in its history: there are researchers who hold that the poles have shifted a number of times and that the polar areas were once tropical in climate. This means that earlier civilizations (like the fabled Atlantis) could be deep under ice, as is postulated by Rand and Rose Flem-Ath.Then we have evidence of rising sea levels, some quite rapid, so that what we seek could be down below the oceans, as humans have a tendency to build near the sea shore. Never forget that only 30% of the Earth is landmass: 70% is ocean ... and we have not fully explored the land. It appears that the Mediterranean Sea was once a deep valley and that a dyke between the Iberian peninsula and Africa was bsignNowed, so that the area was flooded and is now under an average of 1,000 metres (3,200 ft) of water. "Intelligence" does not necessarily equate with "cleverness". We can see in our own time how people inhabit areas with high probabilities of destructive weather and other natural phenomena. Historians hold that many ancient sites were destroyed by volcanic activity (despite evidence to the contrary) and we know that certain ancient cultures  learned (probably the hard way) to build relatively earthquake-resistant buildings.We must also take into account that world-wide "myths" may actually be histories, written down by people who lacked the vocabulary to explain certain astonishing phenomena and visitations they experienced.Proponents of the theory of evolution and creationists alike tend to look only for such evidence as supports their views and both are equally zealous concerning their beliefs, so that they will accept nothing that goes counter to their views.The fact is that we do not know ... and what we do not know may far outweigh what we think we know.Some of the greatest libraries on earth have been destroyed, either by accident or design, so that we no longer have records of any evidence  that may have existed in the past. Another problem that that many institutions, like the Vatican and the Smithsonian have vaults that are inaccessible to ordinary people ... and even to academics, so we do not know what is deliberately hidden from view.Is there any evidence that goes against the current state of the theory of evolution? Yes, there much, but it is ignored, regarded as hoaxes or "killed" by adherents.There is evidence of giants, some with supernumerary digits and double rows of teeth; there are footprints of humans and dinosaurs in the same strata, one even of a dinosaur print over a human print; Virginia Steen-McIntyre suffered much derision and abuse by anthropologists and evolutionists when she found human artifacts that predated the accepted view of human occupation in Mexico by two hundred thousand years; there are skeletons of bearded, red-haired people who occupied North America long before Caucasians are supposed to have arrived there; the same have been found in China ... all these and many more "anomalies" are unexplained by the current, mainstream view ... but there is still worse to come: the blogger over at A human leg bone fossil of 300 mya has definitely identified a human femur that was discovered in three hundred million year old strata. Of even greater significance is his identification of organic material such as bone, blood vessels, blood corpuscles and brain tissue in solid rock, from Earth, the moon and Mars.Could it be that, far from it being a once-off "accident" that occurred only on Earth, life was, at one time, quite common in our solar system and even beyond? A quick tour around what is known about our solar system indicates that something rather devastating happened in the past, which could explain why Earth appears to be the only planet on which life occurs at the moment.The second consideration is the meaning of "civilization" and how we understand or interpret technology. There are different ways to arrive at the same, or similar conclusions, some quicker and apparently more efficient than others ... but, as we have seen, our modern technology is degrading the planet. Did the ancients understand this and purposely avoid it on a large scale, so that we do not equate their advances with high tech? Your guess is as good as mine, but overall, as I said before, humans do not appear to be very clever and it looks as though we are not becoming any cleverer as time goes on. We think we are, but we only have our meagre, often very biased, histories and discoveries to go on and are thus in no good position to judge.

I'm what you can say a “Selective Introvert”. Initially I'm not comfortable familiarizing myself with new people.However , for such situations I always have my earphones handy . But that day this remedy proved to be a disaster .It so happened , that I was visiting my friend who lives in a society. He lives on the 5th floor , and as I had no desire to climb the stairs, I took the elevator instead.Just like every other day , I plugged in my earphones. But , I thought maybe just this time I should try something different. So , I kept the earphones plugged in , but didn't play any song. I just wanted to know what other people talked about when I wasn't listening .A couple entered on the next floor . Their smiles faded right away when they saw me standing there. Even though I knew what was going on , I turned my face to other side showing that I didn't care and pretended I was grooving to the beats of a song.So , they entered and stood on the other side. The boy was being flirtatious , touching her again and again , playing with her hair. He was desperate for making out, but I guess his plans were shattered by me. Both of them , gave me weird looks. Then the boy slowly whisperedYar acha khasa moment tha , patani ye chu**ya kahan se chadh gaya(It could have been a better moment , if this moron wasn't here )I was feeling like a moron standing there.I didn't say anything at that time . When I signNowed my floor , I got out and turned back. Both of them looked at me .Now , comes the savage part . I pressed all the floor buttons . The Bf ran after me , but till then I had climbed up the stairs.He , started moving back to the elevator . He entered the elevator smiling .I screamed :Katega bhai , tera bhi katega(You'll get screwed too )And then I ran away .

Result : Selected, All India Rank - 4 (ISRO 2018)I want to give not only a very detailed experience but also some tips from my side. I have tried to write in such a way that you feel as if you are in interview hall. Because of all this you might feel this interview experience is a bit long but it's only for people very serious about ISRO. Going through the full experience will definitely give you a competitive edge. My contact informations including my whatsapp number is given at the end. Feel free to approach me. Now let's begin.  It was 17th August 2018, 8:00 am ISRO guest house, Chennai.  This year there was no interview center at Bangalore, only Delhi, Kolkata and Chennai and all who had written test centers at Maharashtra, Karnataka, Tamil Nadu, Kerela, Andhra Pradesh and maybe Orissa had their interview center at Chennai.  I was wearing a white shirt, a black pair of trousers, black belt, black pair of shoes with plain black socks and a plain and sober grey tie. Please put on a tie, this is what candidates don't understand, ISRO is almost like a private firm. Here looks, appearance, proper dressing sense and smartness matters, that is why in interview panel there are members from HR present. Without tie, it is not formal, your top button is not closed and your collars are not properly upright. First 10 minutes are deciding for any interview and for first 10 seconds all they are going to observe is your appearance. Candidates who do not take care of these tiny details will say tomorrow that their luck was bad. Its not about luck, it's about taking care of the tiniest details.  My name was first on the list on that day so I signNowed 15 min before the time mentioned in call letter (7:45am).I expected 8:00 to be time for start of verification of documents just like in case of BARC, but ISRO people are not playing around, they do not have classic government job mentality of working 9 to 5 and 5 days a week. So they actually started the interviews 10-15 minutes before 8:00 as few students arrived as early as 7:00 and completed the document verification before me so even though my name was first on the list, 6-7 candidates got interviewed before me (Actually, I liked it... I didn't wanted to be the first but also I didn't wanted to wait for 4-5 hours). So sometime before 10 a.m. I was asked to get into the interview room. Even for me who has already cleared BARC last year, who has already spent days and nights among biggest scientists of this country for the past one year, it was a cereal moment when I slightly opened the door and saw the world on the other side. I got the first glimpse of INDIAN SPACE RESEARCH ORGANIZATION. That moment I'll never forget for the rest of my life. I know a lot of you folks are confused, if I already was in BARC then why did I go for ISRO? Right? See it has something to do with passion. I know exactly what I want, I know exactly which field of engineering fascinates me. It is aerospace engineering and rocket science. This was never possible in BARC and that is why even after failing twice in ISRO written test(May 2017 & Dec 2017) I went for ICRB exam the third time and this time I made it happen. @ the door Me: May I come in sir? I3: yes please (from now on interviewer 1=I1, interviewer 2=I2 and so on) I went and stood near the only chair on my side. It was a gigantic hall. A completely different setup than BARC interview panel. There was a giant rectangular table between me and all the interviewers, there was atleast 7 feet distance between me and the closest interviewer (12 o'clock),so they had a mic for every person attached to the table. There were around 10 interviewers out of which one was a lady but I think including her, two were from HR, because they were monitoring the way I speak and the way I present. I teach a lot about how to be confident, how to have good speaking skills and body posture on youtube so I had a good idea of how to present myself (so those two were continuously impressed and were smiling). I2: Ashish Ramj... Ranjo... Rajm... Me: Sir, Ashish Ranjan. I2: Ok Ashish, please sit down. I sat down (I had my documents left outside), I only had a pen in my right pant pocket which I had borrowed from a very humble fellow candidate because just in the rarest occasion of you need to wright or sign something you should not be in a position where you do not have a pen. Unfortunately this thought did not came to my mind when I left for interview center but fortunately I found a good person who had an extra pen. I2 : Ok Ashish please introduce yourself. Me : Sir, my full name is Ashish Ranjan (exactly like I introduce myself in my unacademy introduction videos but fortunately I leashed myself from saying the next line I say in my videos, "I cleared BARC 2017....", that would have raised a lot of unnecessary questions and I wanted most of the questions from technical side so that I can show my skills in engineering and not my background because I knew that's what the majority of the marking out of 100 is going to be for) I was born and raised in Ranchi, Jharkhand. From there I did my schooling. In 10th standard I got a CGPA of 9.2 and in 12th I had a percentage of 75.5 percent. Till then I did not had much direction in my life but when I started my btech in Sikkim Manipal Institute of technology something changed. I found engineering very interesting, I started to spend more and more time in learning more about engineering, by the end of 4 years I had a CGPA of 9.57 and a bronze medal from my university (by now they are so interested in my story of how an average student became a topper and so impressed by my high CGPA that it slipped their mind that I hid one very important fact.... I never mentioned which year I passed out or which year I joined b.tech. I was 2016 passout, I didn't wanted to mention that I worked at BARC but then I had a more than 2 years gap and that wouldn't have looked good). Throughout my btech, I never wasted time, I was hungry for knowledge so I utilised all my semester breaks to do internships. By the end of 4 years I had done around 5 internships and also I did classes on some designing softwares.(All along I was making eye contact with each of the interviewer, the "light house effect" and the "spot light effect" which I talk about in my videos, because no interviewer should feel left out, this is something that I learned by giving 8-10 viva sessions in my days at BARC training school. You must understand that interviewers are also humans at the end of the day and wherever there are humans there are emotions and remember this: "humans take decisions emotionally and justify them by logic" so I wanted to make every interviewer feel good because I knew everyone had some percentage of my marks that would get me in. Now I took a look at them and tried to find by their expression if they wanted to know more. Everyone looked interested. I knew if they were bored they would have interrupted me. So I continued with my hobbies) I am also a lot into public speaking so I like to enhance my communication skills and I like to work on it everyday (at this point of time making spotlight eye contact with HR lady. She smiled) and I'm also into sports (making spotlight eye contact with the male HR) like track and field. Male HR: What sports?(with a smile)  Me: sir track and field like 100m race, 400m race.  He looked at me like he wanted to know more, everyone is looking at me to know more. I knew I had them. Now it's time to play my ace. That's when I dropped the nuke.... Me: I also have been a lot into martial arts. I am a black belt in shotokan karate(with a smile)  Done! Now everyone has my attention. Male HR : (smiling) That is great Ashish. Female HR: (smiling) we would have never guessed that. Me : (smiling) I know mam.  Remember it is very important to smile. Do not act like a scared student over there, act like a confident and friendly future colleague, because that's who they are looking to hire.  I2: Ok Ashish what are your favourite subjects? Me: Sir my favourite subjects are Fluid Mechanics, Strength of Materials, Machine design... also I'm comfortable with Theory of machine and material science....and also heat transfer. (I knew that in ISRO interview there is one member from each subject, even theory of machine, material science and manufacturing. So I wanted to involve as much interviewers as possible.There is a probability that there will be 2 difficult (abstract) question out of 10, 8 questions will be easy textbook type. So if everyone is saying 4 favourite subjects and getting 2 difficult questions, you can say 6 favourite subject and get 3 difficult questions. Probability increased as now there is a higher chance that atleast 1 will be from one of your stronger subjects and you'll be able to answer it and that would definitely impress them. Plus on top of that you are getting double the number of easy questions, so for more number of time you'll be playing on your front foot. If you are not able to answer questions from one subject but show smartness and confidence, other interviewer might think let me test him/her with my subject, maybe he/she is good at that. But all of it will work only if you spent time working on all subject for a month. It is a difficult path but it is the only sure shot path to ISRO and the only way to deal with the uncertainty that is associated with every step of ISRO. What all of these will do definitely is that it will make your interview last longer (my interview lasted for over half an hour, which is very unusual for ISRO as most of the isro interviews go upto maximum of 20 minutes). Now what longer interview does is that it reduces the luck factor as longer you are infront of them more is the chances of you being able to show your skill in engineering. Female HR: (giggling) lot of favourite subjects.  Me:(with a smile) I like mechanical engineering. (rehearsed line to show them I am an all-rounder and comfortable with inter-disciplinary tasks which is what all core companies want)  Till now everything was rehearsed, I rehearsed that I would say these things 5-10 times infront mirror as I knew these two questions they would definitely ask. I knew from this point onwards rest of the interview is all about engineering skills and improvising, but doing this first step perfectly ensures that now they are looking forward to hire you, now all you have to do is not make a blunder. I2: Ok Ashish, please go to the board. I saw a 6ft. by 4 ft. white board behind me with a chair left of me on which two marker pens and an Eraser/duster was kept. As far as what I remember about the surrounding, the lighting of the room was not very bright, not as bright as it could have been, but above the board there was a white light which was making that area very bright. All this was increasing the feel in me that this is it... I worked for it for one and a half year and now I'm here, I'm in control and time to show them what I've got. I took care of how I stand, made sure that I'm standing up straight... Chest out, back straight but just enough to make it look natural. These are things that I practiced infront of mirror few days before the interview and also something that I've always been attentive about. I2: Draw two vertical lines. I did. I2: draw two horizontal lines in between them. I did I2:make vertical lines as fixed supports.and upper horizontal line is steel, lower horizontal line is aluminium bar. Tell me the stresses in them if temperature is increased from 20 C to 100 C Me: (writing all the information he was giving me on board, I wrote delta T=80 C) Sir due to increase in temperature this bar will try to elongate but the rigid support will not let it so there will be compressive reactions applied by the supports so there will be compressive stress. (while writing on board) sir, thermal stain epsilon =delta T*alpha so thermal stress will be alpha *deltaT*E, E being the Young's modules.  I2: so what is the value? Which of them will have higher stress? Me: Sir that depends on the values of Young's modulus and thermal expansion coefficient.  I2: what are the values?  Me: sir Young's modulus of Aluminium is 69Gpa( this number was easiest to remember for obvious reasons ;) ) for mild steel it is 200 GPa. I don't remember the exact values of thermal expansion coefficients for these materials but I know that it's of the order of 10^(-6) and for steel it is around 10.I don't remember for aluminium.  I2: take it 3 times the thermal coefficient of steel and take Young's modulus of aluminium as 70 and that for steel as 210. Me: Ok sir now we can compare. Let's first find for aluminium. (writing on board and speaking simultaneously) so stress in aluminium is alphaA*80*210=3*alphaS*80*70=16800*alphaS(on the side I did the calculation very quickly, I wrote 21*8 and directly wrote the answer as 16800 within fraction of seconds)  I3: Why did you Wright 21?what is 8? Me: Sir 7*3=21. I2: what is 8? Me: sir I have taken 8 from 80....I'm just doing the calculation.  I4: Oh.. Final answer likh dia isne. They were surprised that I did this calculation so fast, they forgot that this is nothing compared to the proficiency in hand and mental calculation we need to clear written exam.  HR male : (smiling) Ha ha sahi kr raha hai. You continue.  Me: so now the stress in steel bar. Stress =alphaS*80*210=16800alphaS I was a little confused seeing that the value is same.  Me:Ok sir so what we have is that Young's modulus of steel is three times...(was interrupted)  I2:Which one has more stress?  Me: Sir, stresses will be equal.  I2: OK. (looking at I3, indicating him to ask his question)  I3: Ok, do you know what keys are.  Me: Sir, keys are mechanical elements used to have constant velocity rati... (my voice fading)  {It was a very easy topic for me because it is the second chapter I teach on unacademy in my course of machine design but for some reason I got tongue tied but I pulled my self back, I gave myself time to breathe and think but at the same time made sure that interviewers don't have to wait, so I started to draw a shaft-hub assembly on board} Me:(while drawing) So if I have a shaft and over it we have a hub like a gear or a bearing then if we add a key then both shaft and hub will have same angular velocity, there will be positive drive which means there will be no slip.  I3: How do you design a key?  Me: A rotating shaft transmits torque to hub through key. Key will have tangential force. So we consider what we call a "sunk key", that means it is inserted within groves in both shaft and hub (drawing and explaining simultaneously) then let us consider a rectangular key of length l, width b and height t(I drew a fresh isometric view of key alone). Now we can design it by both crushing and shearing. So designing it by crushing first, let us say that sigmaC is the crushing strength of the material then crushing area will be this (showing on diagram) i.e. l*t/2. So cruising strength will be sigmaC*l*t/2,this is the maximum tangential load the key can take based on crushing, if we multiply it with radius of shaft, we will get the maximum torque it can take, if we again multiply it with angular velocity we can find out the maximum power it can transmit.  {for this 2-3 minutes, I forgot about the rest of the world, I completely got into my teaching mode, nobody questioned anything, they were all just nodding and smiling, it was an easy question but it doesn't matter what the question is, it matters how well you explain it. I've said this before in my BARC preparation videos, these are top scientists of this country you are dealing with, for them everything is easy like ABCD, for them design of key is easy and so is finite element method, so explain any question you get to the fullest}  I3:Ok ok(looked very satisfied)  {But I didn't stop, I thought let's finish it perfectly, 18 months of preparation, 6 years of struggle, I'm not taking any chances, I'll present my 100%} Me: We can also design it based on shear, so for that the tangential force will be same but shear area now will be(showing it on diagram) b*l, so we have to know the shear strength of the material and we can again find the maximum tangential load and subsequently maximum torque in similar manner.  I3:ok ok.  I4:have you studied engineering drawing?  {this is the thing about ISRO, they can ask questions even from subjects you didn't mention as favourite subject. I mentioned 6 subjects but still they went for 7th. What they didn't knew is that I was prepared for 11 subjects. I had already prepared engineering drawing along with all of production, refrigeration and air conditioning, engineering mechanics and obviously thermodynamics, in the last 2 months. You see the contrast in BARC & ISRO interviews? In BARC you say 5 subjects and you prepare for 4 according to my strategy that I shared on youtube. In ISRO on the other hand, you say 5-6 subjects and prepare for 11-12 subjects.}  Me: Yes sir.  I4:Why do we need engineering drawing?  Me: Whatever a designer designs, engineering drawing is used to convey it to the manufacturer.  I4: Suppose you have to produce this glass (there was a glass on my side of the table) how will you do it? What will be the engineering drawing? Show us on board.  Me:Sir should I draw the projections? top view, front view etc.?  I4: Yes.  Me: (Drawing and explaining) I am going to use Indian standard. In India we use 3rd angl..sorry 1st angle projection so I'm going to draw according to it.  I4: What?  Me: Sir, we use first angle projection in India.  Male HR: Is it so? (with a big smile on his face) Me: Yes sir, Indian companies use first angle projection and American companies use third angle projection. (they looked satisfied so I turned back to the board and continued drawing and explaining) So according to first angle projection, top view will be below front view and right view will be on left hand side of front view. So the front view will be like this (drawing a rectangular shape with its lower edge touching the horizontal plane. I also drew the hidden lines to show that glass has some thickness and that it is a hollow cylinder, drew projection lines towards left hand side plane to draw right view but stopped knowing that it will be same as front view and I didn't want to waste their time as I knew what they wanted to see are the front view and top view)  Some Interviewer from back: It would be same right? (talking about the right view)  Me: (without turning) yes sir.(continued drawing, drew two concentric circles using projections of front view and stopped).  I4: So how will you show concentricity?  Me: Like this sir(I drew two mutually perpendicular center lines, those with alternate long and short lines) I5: So how will you show a concentricity tolerance of let us say //some value I do not remember // microns?  Me: (thinking for a second) sir it looks like this (drew two small concentric circles. 2 years ago when I was an intern at TATA Cummins, my guide forced me to go through geometric dimensioning and tolerancing, but it was impossible to remember all that now) I do not remember completely, I studied this a long time ago in Geometric dimensioning and Tolerancing (I later found out that the symbol I drew was actually correct, its just that it was a bit incomplete)  I4:Ok ok(looked satisfied)  {Till now it was perfect and I knew that if you are giving perfect answers to normal questions, they are going to get into more advanced and abstract questions because now they would like to push your limits. Honestly the easy questions lasted longer than I expected. By now I knew I had done more than enough to get in, the interview is over, I am selected, if they continue, it will be only be because they want to have a little fun}  I1:You said material science right?  Me: Yes sir.  I1: In what way do we classify materials?  Me: (A little confused about where to start? as this question has infinite number of answers) Sir, we can classify materials as ductile and brittle.  I1: and?  Me: (Thinking for a second or two) and we also classify it as isotropic and orthotropic.  I1: and?  Me: There are lot of ways to classify Materia...  I1: have you heard of metallic and non metallic materials?  Me: yes sir, metallic materials have free electrons in it where as non metallic materials has no free electrons.  I1: Can you give me some examples of both?  Me: Sir examples of non-metallic materials are plastic, polymers, ceramics.  I1: and non metallic?  Me: Steel, copper, aluminium etc.  (such a silly question, I think by the end of me answering, he also realised it 7 so he said along with me)  I1: Cooper, steel etc right?  Me: yes sir, copper steel, aluminium etc.  I1: can you draw the stress strain curve of mild steel, cast iron and aluminium?  Me: yes sir. (turning towards the board and going to the left most part of it) so first I'll draw for mild steel.  I1: No no.. In same graph.  Me: ok sir (drew x and y axis at center of the board) on x axis we will have stress...Engineering stress (I didn't wanted to play that game of I'll say stress then you'll ask which stress then I'll say engineering stress then you'll ask what is other kind, what is it.... And so on... Because this interview had already gone way longer than I expected. At that point I just wanted to show all the excellence I have. By directly writing engineering stress, I had answered all those 6-8 questions perfectly in fraction of a second in their head, thus my impression improved and their time saved. It's a win win trick you play only when you know you are already on positive side because now they are confident about your skill in engineering, now they won't even ask... They'll just assume that you know it. That is the difference between 9/10 and 10/10. If you are 9/10 people will think there's something else you might not know and if you are 10/10 people will think you know everything. So I continued drawing, without wasting any time I drew three curves.  I1: Now where will concrete lie?  Me: (I drew a line near cast iron but with a larger slope)  I1: will it be stronger than cast iron?  Me : No sir, it will depend on young's modulus. Slope of this line is young's modulus.  I1: so is it stronger than cast iron?  Me: No sir(drawing a line with lesser slope) all I am saying is that concrete is brittle so it will have similar curve... There will be no yielding.  I1: So where will it lie?  Me: Sir it depends on young's modulus of concrete,I don't remember the value.  I1: OK.  I6: you said heat transfer right?  Me: yes sir.  I6: draw a pipe?  Me: (drew two parallel lines)  I6: no the other side.  Me: front view?  I6: yes.  Me: (drew two concentric circles)  I6: there is hot fluid passing. Tell me the modes of heat transfer.  Me: convection-conduction-convection.  I6: Now put an insulation.  Me: (I did)  I6: Now tell me the modes of heat transfer.  Me: convection-conduction-conduction-convection I6: Now remove the insulation. Now this pipe is buried underground. Soil is maintained at 25 C. Tell me the modes of heat transfer.  Me: convection-conduction-conduction I6: No, that pipe wall is maintained at 75 C.  Me: There will be conduction taking place as soil is solid. There is no chance of convection. Since the temperature difference is large there might be considerable radiation. (this was an abstract question, these questions have no answers, you have to show your thinking capacity here, that's it)  I7: Ok coming to fluid mechanics.  (At this time I was surprised by the time they are investing on me)  Me: yes sir.  I7: have you seen air balloon? Why does it fly?  Me: it is because of the buoyancy effect. The weight of the air it displaces is more than the its own weight.  I7: So it will keep on going up into the outer space?  ( A long time ago I had heard this question when I was still undergraduate, I knew it will stop at a particular height but never gave it a thought on why it will stop)  Me: No sir it will stop at a particular height (with full confidence... hoping he doesn't ask why)  I7: Why?  Me:(thinking for a second, pretending that I'm gathering my words) Sir as we keep on going to higher altitudes the air becomes thinner and thus we have lower density, thus at some point weight of fluid displaced will equate to weight of balloon and it stops.  I7: so have you seen that we use heat source placed at the bottom of balloon?  Me: yes sir.  I7: Why do we use it?  Me: To heat the air. Hotter air will have lesser density.  I7: That hole is made very small. Why? Why can't we have a larger hole?  Me: Sir, so that we don't have to heat a lot lot of air.  I7: No we are heating the same amount of air anyways.  Me: (paused for few seconds, thinking) Sir I'll have to think about it.  I7: Why can't we have it like a parachute?  Me: (thinking)  I7: why cant we have a big hole?  Me: (Drew a semi sphere, convex upwards) like this?  I7: Yes, exactly.  Me: (Thinking. Somehow I knew I was taking more time than what they have, but they were unexpectedly giving me time to think and kept giving me hints, this was because of the strong base I created and also they were considerate about the fact that I have been standing and explaining for the last 30-40 minutes, I must have gotten tired) It will be difficult to manufacture (just didn't wanted to be dumb so I said something. This is very important, if I stood dumb for 10 more seconds, interview would have ended right there and what's worse? It would have ended at a bad note. So I said something so that they might think that I am trying)  I7: We don't care about manufacturing cost. Have you studied about stability of a body?  {Now that's all I needed}  Me: Yes sir, ok I get it. For stability of submerged body of center of buoyancy should be above center of gravity of the body.  I7:why?  Me: If we tilt the body in any direction, there will be a restoring couple (showed it with diagram). So this principle is used here.  I7:How?  Me: Making a spherical shape must ensure the balloon to have G below B.  I7:(looking for more)  Me:(thinking for a second and then I finally got it, I got the answer. A submerged body can only be unstable if it has a differential density. What a smaller fire hole does is that it decreases the region directly in contact with the fire, i.e. it reduces the volume with sudden drop of density. Thus it helps in maintaining a relatively more uniform density so that the balloon remains stable in case of winds and bad weather. All these were running in my head. I forgot that I was in interview room, I just found the question amazing and was thrilled that I was able to get to the answer. That's when I exclaimed at a voice louder than any they had heard by me in the last 45 min...It was like a 'Eureka!' ) YES (took the marker pen and turned to the board) If I have balloon in the shape of a sphere (Drew a strong circle quickly, as soon as I did this, they knew that I've got it)  I7: Ok Ashish you can go. Me:(nodded, kept the pen on chair) thankyou everyone (I exited from the door)  I checked the time, it was way past 10:30. A guy (another candidate) followed me, he asked "what are they asking?" I said it all depends on your subjects. He said "your interview lasted very long". I asked, "how long?". "much more than half an hour" he said. I replied "it didn't feel like it, I have to go upstairs to return this pen". I returned the pen and went out thinking time to get some highlights in my hair. The interview lasted crazy long when compared to how long ISRO interviews usually last (10-20 minutes). I didn't see time before getting in but with my experience in previous interviews and taking a look at how much time they spent only on introduction and then the fact that they asked questions from SIX subjects that too lengthy ones, I think it was easily close to an hour. I was very confident I'm getting selected just like the day I was when BARC 2017 interview was over. One thing I'm sure of is that you cannot fool yourself, after the interview you either know you got selected or you know you didn't. There's nothing in between and that day I knew that I did it. Being in BARC for 1 year made me realise one thing... that I'm not a scientist.... I do not shine the brightest when it comes to Engineering. Where I excel is in making a full proof strategy for beating one of the most difficult competitions. That's how I cracked BARC and that's how I cracked ISRO and I want the world to know that anyone can do it if they have a proper strategy, dedication and a little bit of craziness.  If you went through my full interview experience then obviously you are very serious about this job. Find more of my guidance videos on my Youtube channel : Torq4712 Feel free to approach me at : Instagram, twitter, unacademy at : ashish_torq Gmail: torque4712@gmail.com  Whatsapp: 7042830765 (please don't call without messaging first) All I want to do is help my juniors. I want to bring the most authentic knowledge to all interested aspirants for free. This path is tough and I appreciate everyone who has the courage to travel it. All the best.

I have written quite some answers to similar questions, but never one as elaborate as this one, which will reveal facts me and my family were previously unaware of, as well as false assumptions of my own family.My family is entirely of Muhajir (descendants of Muslim refugees to Turkey under Ottoman rule) origin from countries such as Greece, Macedonia and Kosovo. There have been claims of Bosnian ancestry in my maternal family, however this has been proven to be inaccurate. However, I do have Bosnian ancestry; more on that later on.My father's family adheres to a special and enigmatic sect/brotherhood within Islam called Bektashism which is a branch of the mystical Sufi Islam. His ancestors are comprised of primarily Turcomans, Greeks and Albanians: he is from a village and two towns in northern Greece (Akrini, Kozani and Ptolemaïda) that was settled by a mixture of Turcoman Anatolians and their Greek retinues or fellow warriors.His ancestors settled in the region in 1390, according to recent family history research, from the historical Ottoman nomadic heartland around Söğüt in northwest Turkey, and belonged to the Kayı tribe, thus making him related to the Ottoman Sultans who, according to tradition, descended from the same nomads. These Turcomans cooperated with Anatolian Christians and intermarried with them, like so prompting the emergence of Bektashi Islam with many Christian, Turkic and Shia Iranian traditions.^Imam Ali, who holds great significance in Shia and Sufi Islam.In northern Greece, my ancestors on one side lived in villages, cultivating farmer lands, and on the other were urban artisans in Ptolemaïda and Kozani. Around the 1880s, however, they were joined by Albanians who migrated south from their highlands in Gegëria (northern Albania). They came from various present-day countries and were not alone for Muslim Bosnians coalesced with them into one after having fled the Austro-Hungarian occupation and local conflicts. Apparently, research has shown it is our ancestors that included Bosnians, not my mom's.^An Ottoman ethnic map of Macedonia by point of view of Serbs: Blue - Greek, purple - Vlach, Yellow - Albanian, pink - Turkish, vivid green - Bulgarian, light and muted green - Bulgarians/Slavs from Macedonia, and dark green - Serbs.A more reliable map would be:^Same color system, but all light green represents Bulgarian.In northern Greece, these Turcomans and Albanians merged and inhabited each other's villages and neighbourhoods. In 1913, with the annexation of the region by Greece, they fled to Turkey and settled in the districts of Manisa and Samsun, where they reside in the only Bektashi villages of their respective provinces.My mother's family, on the other hand, has not been in Turkey as long as my father's. My grandparents were both born and raised as Sunni Muslim ethnic Turks in Yugoslavia (in what is now Macedonia), where my grandmother was born in Dobrašin but lived in Radoviš towards her last years in the country, where my grandfather was born and raised.My grandmother's family was neither wealthy nor poor, but a regular Turkish family in a farmer village. My late grand dad's family, on the other hand, was in possession of huge pieces of land and very wealthy, to the point that pictures of my great grandmother show a woman more furnished than the bourgeoisie of contemporary England. This part of my family is likely descended from a local Macedonian/Bulgarian nobility that converted to Islam under Ottoman rule, which is confirmed by genetic testing which shows no sign or indication of Turcoman ancestry among my maternal family, irrespective of the claim to be descendants of the Karamanids of mediaeval Anatolia.Although the Balkan Wars of 1912 shook the ground in their World, they remained in their countries up until 1953, when they were forced by Yugoslav authorities to either adopt the Slavic identity (and thus Christianity) or 'return' to Turkey.They chose the latter option.Here are the results of genetic testing in a special calculator called nMonte:Father:39% Bulgarian32% Greek_central20% Turkmen_Uzbekistan9% Greek_CappadociaAs you can see, my father has Turcoman and Anatolian Greek ancestry as well as ‘local Balkan’ elements within his genome. However, because all Balkan populations are relatively closely related to each other, it is hard to determine the right population in these calculators, a phenomenon we call 'overfitting.’ What is told to be Bulgarian and central Greek is actually a combination of his Albanian, northern Greek and Bosnian ancestry.Mother:100% BulgarianNot much to say, don't you think?Myself:59% Greek_Peleponnese28% Bosnian13% Turkmen_UzbekistanHere we see another case of overfitting: although my Turcoman side is indeed halved, my Anatolian side is merged with Greek_Peleponnese, which in this case represents my Albanian, northern Greek and Anatolian ancestry.Bosnian here is representative of both my Bulgarian and Bosnian ancestry. Here you can see that ethnicity tests must be taken with a grain of salt and correctly interpret.As the grandson of labour workers to the Netherlands from Turkey (my grandparents decided the European version of the American Dream wouldn't be a bad idea), my origins lie in Rotterdam, where I don't feel home, however. Leiden, the city where I will go to university very soon is amazing and exactly for my liking. But the country where I feel entirely home is Italy, of which I visited multiple cities and towns, none of which have managed to disappoint me.That is my Homeland.Although it's a statement made by Ayatollah Khamenei, not a very tolerant person himself, this does not erase the truthfulness of his statement.