Voya S 2014-2025 Form

I was 4 almost 5. My experience was not near death, it was death.I was in my bed sick. I had been very ill running fevers hitting 104. Mom says I hit 105 at some point. I remember being lowered into a cold tub of water, my mother frantically trying to bring the fever down. I would hallucinate the same thing when my fever got that high. The ceiling would start bouncing back and forth like a rubber band. It would begin lowering down on me. I would cry out thinking I was going to be crushed. In looking back now it was probably seizures.I was also vomiting every hour or less. When my stomach had nothing left I was dry heaving yellow mucus.Mom took me to the hospital seeing I was getting ready to die. I was little and my body had taken all it could. I was losing against whatever bug had hold of me.I was immediately rushed back to the ER beds and the room became busy with medical staff rushing around. They were asking mom questions as she watched me looking worried and trying not to cry.I felt so tired. I just wanted to sleep for a while. I remember telling everyone I was feeling much better. The sounds in the room started to get a hollow echo to them. I just wanted to close my eyes, so I did.The voices in the room continued to echo. I suddenly noticed my toes were touching the foot of the bed. I thought,”wow! I am a big girl!” I felt so proud. I opened my eyes to look and when I did I was looking at myself. I was laying on a gurney. I was blue. My eyes were slats. There were people around me frantically working. Mom was crying as she looked on.I wasn't upset or scared. A little confused. I knew I didn't have a body. I felt like I was part of everything and everyone. I moved upward and could see other rooms. I later detailed conversations that there is no way I could have known. I lifted out of the hospital and continued ascending. I began browsing thru time. I saw events from my short life. I later detailed things that occured before I could even talk. Things I should not be able to remember but do and in great detail. Ascended more. I felt at peace. There were no questions or unknowns. There were no fears or worries. I began drifting towards a light. It was beautiful. I wanted to touch it.Suddenly there was a pop. It felt like I was attached to a cord and someone grabbed it and jerked me down. I descended almost instantly.After that it's hazy. I obviously got better and went home. The experience has shaped me in so many ways. I know there is a place we go when we die. Oddly I still fear death. I can't understand why.So that's my near death experience. I hope it gives some one hope .

I did. I had four very different experiences, which were verified by the people who brought me back.The first time that I died, my boyfriend and I were just beginning to experiment with drugs and he gave me too much. It was supposedly a very pure batch of cocaine. Three people had died in Aspen that summer from injecting it.I had not previously experimented with this. As a model most lived on the “VITAMINS C DIET”, which consisted of coffee, cigarettes, champagne and cocaine. More than 85% of models smoked but I wasn’t one, nor was cocaine one of my food groups. I didn’t even smoke weed but the constant peer pressure and professional demands were too much for my insecurities during this time. I began to experiment.I was naturally thin and Parrish had miscalculated the amount for me to inhale. I felt dizzy and odd, suddenly the surroundings began to shrink, distort and move away from me.I told him and his friend that something was wrong. I felt a spirialing motion inside my body, as my physicality dulled, the room also I began to lose my senses. My vision blurred. I saw them move in slow motion and couldn’t hear them talking to me.Strangely I felt a sadness and fear, then a delightful sensation began, just then my consciousness/awareness quickly ‘popped out’ of the top of my head, or what is called the crown chakra.My eyes rolled up and my body went down. A strong sense of detachment and neutrality began as I observed from above my knees buckle and Parrish catch me.I was able to see everything in the immediate vicinity. We were in a closed room, yet I could see my roommate asleep in her bedroom next door. It was similar to a theater set where there are walls but no ceiling.I was gaining altitude and floating above it all. I wasn’t in any sense of a body. I was an observer, a witness, with a new and pure innocence that was similar to that of a very young child.Parrish’s friend who had brought the ‘party favors’ said, ‘‘Oh God, she’s toast. Let’s get out of here." My boyfriend had the presence of mind to drag me into a cold shower and also do CPR. Meanwhile I was going into a dim place with Light Beings in a ‘‘vague form, telepathically telling me that it wasn’t my time and I needed to return. I was filled with a sublime peace, awareness, neutrality, and surrounded by a loving presence.I wasn’t afraid, as they gave me the information. I did not want to leave this place although nothing was familiar in a material manner , yet everything existed and was non threatening.When I popped back into my body, I noticed the relief on my boyfriend’s face and the other guy’s whole panicked expression. I told them exactly what happened and what was said when I was dead. They had checked my pulse and heartbeat, and there was nothing. They became believers in some kind life or existence in consciousness after death from then on.The second time I died, I was in a dentist‘s office and the new dental assistant put the nitrous oxide mask on me. I remember her tapping the machine saying it seems to be on the fritz. She said the machine is just acting up, but it still works even though it has an off reading on oxygen.She dismissed it as a faulty reading since it was a different manufacturer. I said that I was ok, and didn’t want to feel any pain when they were putting in a crown.I had taken the prescribed for pain before coming for the dental appointment.I became confused and forgot how many and so I took two more. Because of the pain meds and the lack of oxygen and pure nitrous oxide, I was dying.I felt the same lightness as I floated out of my body although now I began traveling into a swirling mandala of Light through the universe. I was also aware of being above my body and watching my head slump and arms fall to my side. I saw everything from a 360 degree POV.I was spiraling into this unimaginably beautiful golden circle of Light filled with pure Love and Peace.I saw faces of various spiritual teachers and leaders and personal loved ones. We communicated telepathically.I lost my individuality and ego becoming one with everything. I experienced the eternal Now. Past, present and future were all in the moment.I felt love and safe with the people that I knew. I was so happy until the nurse returned to the room.I saw that I was unconscious, my head to the side and I wasn’t breathing . The nitrous oxide, lack of oxygen and the Percocets did me in.The funny thing was that when she returned, she just walked passed me and over do the side, preparing the dental equipment.Without turning around, she said, “I’m going to need you to open wide. My mouth was open and she looked and said , I will need you to open wider.” I felt laughter and release as I was the ‘butt of a cosmic joke’. Then she freaked out at my coloring and lack of response .She pulled off the mask and began applying emergency oxygen and yelled for the dentist. I observed what was going on 3 rooms over.Later I described the woman patient exactly, having never met or seen her before. I could relate the conversation word for word.I was being revived very forcibly by the dentist doing CPR and pounding on my chest. I felt pain and annoyance and I began being pulled back into my body.Upon regaining consciousness and stable vitals, I was taken home. I was so depressed that I cried for a week. These two people were so shaken, as we were leaving I heard them tell the receptionist to cancel all the appointments for the rest of the day.I know that there is no hell but we are met by ‘elders’ or a karmic board and shown how well we did (LOVE) and how we needed improving, (Fear, hate, contraction). I was told that this is probably my last lifetime and that I would get off the Wheel of 86.I was told that I was an old Soul and completing my karma, if I didn’t go off the Spiritual path through drugs, hurting others, and finishing my life less attached to this level.In 2014, I was admitted into ICU for Severe Septic Shock from a cat bite, I had a 20% chance of surviving.At one point I began ‘crashing’ and my BP was falling from 80/40 and a pulsar of 105.I started floating out of my body again, no pops. I was able to tell them later who was on what gurney, their exact age, and illness. I had tapped into something all knowing and compassionate yet neutral. I was again just a neutral, accepting witness to life below me.Drugs and giving our spiritual life over to others creates illusions. Our God connection is natural, we don’t need anything except to trust our intuition and own truth.For me, if I turned from the Light, Christ, or whatever teacher of Love and universal Spiritual principles, ala the Golden Rule, then I would have a difficult life.If I killed myself then I would have to return and clear it, although it may be ok for some Souls. If I harm myself or others it will be balanced, These are my guidelines and path. I couldn’t die and no Soul can leave unless there is a window of opportunity.As a comfort to some families, I was informed twice not to judge a suicide or anyone’s actions. I don’t know the karma or balancing actions. Sometimes a very pure, innocent Soul will embody and be murdered so another can choose love or evil. It is not always a balancing action. Many beautiful, highly-evolved Souls body just to sacrifice themselves out of pure love.I had never understood why so many bad things happen to good people. It can strengthen those around them to signNow higher into their conscienceness.The Soul wants experiences and some can commit suicide and it’s ok, It was set up as an educational experience.I am watching my behavior and I am aware that all paths lead to a greater existence after this. I had the strong impression that there is no hell.We just have our karma returning and we may be receiving the negativity that we dispensed previously. Strong unfulfilled desires and attachments can cause us to return for something we wanted and never received.Our hell is of our own making. There is a HUGE, loving, pain free Presence that I will label as Nothingness, God/Spirit/Universal Love/Universal Mind, doorknob, whatever… but our consciousness lives on as pure neutral awareness.I can only state unequivocally that I was loved and comforted. If this is the ? then It loves all of It’s creation and wants only the best for us but we have many choices on our path yet as this Source simply loves and observes everything.

I have two sets of advice. First coments apply if you work for a large company with an HR department. Small business advise is last. (And how you behave for each is very different. To a large corporate owned company you are a number. To a small business, you are like a member of a small family.)Corporate advice:A. Any corporate boss who asks for proof of death, or proof of illlness, or any proof of reason for absence is overstepping boundaries. DON’T come clean to ANYONE who has that kind of mentality in the corporate world, you’ll be giving pearls to swine. They’ll ruin you. Here’s what you do (and my mobile ap has no date on this question so if it’s old…eh learn for next time.B. You are going to need to become an instant adult overnight. You’re playing with the big boys now. You do something stupid, stop panicking…THINK!FIRST, look through the workplace policy manual to see what the actual protocol for PTO is. Check if she has the right to ask for proof of death, or to ask for reasons for absense. Check if it’s standard HR office protocol or if she’s just being a “bossy boss.”If it's NOT protocol, if she does NOT have the right to ask for proof of death, go talk to HR. Get clarification from HR about time off policies.If HR states no reason needs to be given for PTO, then tell them what happened: that 1. there was a death in the family, that 2. she asked for proof, that 3. you know now it is not office policy, but she asks it from those underneath her, that 4. you want her to stop asking for “notes from mom.” 5. You want to take your days off per office policy, and you believe questions about your personal life are inappropriate, and this last caused you great stress, because you feel asking your aunt for a death certificate was bordering on harrassment, but you don’t want to lose your job.If it IS HR policy, then, because YOU failed to read your manual, you will either have to lie, come clean, or quit. I dont suggest coming clean. HOWEVER, I dont suggest this because I believe in lying…I don’t! (And I hope you have learned that your one day off was surely not worth all this!) I don’t think you should come clean because, I BELIEVE IT’S NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS, and ANY boss who asks for proof of ANYTHING has overstepped their boundaries as your boss.Your boss has NO RIGHT to know anything about your personal life. Not one damb thing! Bosses today have evolved into disturbing, controlling, parental figures that demand to know things they’ve no right to know. Your boss has no right to know if your cousin actually died and no right to know if you're a liar. Your family’s existence and your moral character are none of their business.The ONLY thing your boss needs to decide is:To what degree your absence affected the daily productivity.If you had any PTO/time off left to use.Whether to keep you, give you a warning, or fire you.Your BEHAVIOR is the only thing she need concern herself with. Your MINDSET and THE REASONS BEHIND YOUR BEHAVIOR is none of her affair, and nothing she has a right to discover.Her conversation with you should be nothing more than:“Your absence caused you to get behind on ‘abc.’ I’ll need you to get it caught up by ‘xyz’ date.” OR…“You had 28 days PTO starting the beginning of the year. You’ve taken 10 of those already. You might want to ration them out or you wont have any left at the end of the year.” OR…“I hope you’re family is doing well. Welcome back.”Read your manual, there should be well defined rules governing days off. Most jobs give you so many days off per year, and you can take them, and no reason need be given. Most bosses dont want to know why their employees take days off, and her wanting a reason is very strange to me. If it’s a large business it reeks of discrimination, and she’s singled you out for some reason, OR you are habitually absent and she’s decided to play a mind game of cat and mouse. Either way, asking for proof is a strange request for most companies. Very strange. I’d consider finding a different, less bizarre job.SMALL BUSINESS - with no HR department, or a mom and pop shop where the boss is the actual owner:Asking for “a note from mom,” unfortunately is common with owner/boss small businesses, because they do operate more like a small family. If this is the case, and you work for a mom and pop shop, then it actually might be best to come clean. Prostrate yourself before the boss/owner, beg forgiveness, and promise never to do it again.BOTTOM LINE: The best gift you could give YOURSELF is a good work ethic. Never take a day off unless you are taking an allowed vacation, you are actually sick, or there really IS a family emergency.

Smart Christians (and other believers in Christ) know it’s not their job to prove these. Christ never instructed them to set out to prove anything to anyone. He instructed his church to publish the gospel message and that’s all. That doesn’t include going to people individually who are minding their own business and striving with them to get them to believe either the gospel or in God’s existence. Someone who has been “called” by God the Father [1] is instructed in the Scriptures to “Prove all things”[2] to himself—and himself only, and then to be ready to give an answer when asked why they believe. [3]Prior to the prophesied time when he will pour out his spirit upon all flesh, because he has filled the whole earth with knowledge of himself, God the Father reserves to himself the prerogative to draw those whom he has predestined from the foundation of the world to his son. Those from among them who properly respond to this calling he places into his church.This calling, however, is a call to duty—one the vast majority who profess his name know nothing of and have not entered into. Jesus built a church—not a religion called “Christianity.” And every member of that church is in training to be a part of the coming government—or, kingdom—of God. They are preparing themselves to reign as kings and priests in this kingdom, which Christ sets up the next time he comes to earth.It will not be what those who have been taught to reject God’s sovereign rule over their lives—by rejecting the keeping of his commandments—expect. Because it’s not what they’ve been taught, by the false shepherds, who (the Scripture says) are ministers of Satan the devil.This is not the popular answer and won’t endear me to many people, but it is the truth according to Scripture. But people prefer to keep the commandments of men, rather than of God.The “best proof” (to the individual) of the living Jesus Christ is the spirit of God within that individual. God’s spirit in them bears direct witness to their human spirit of his existence and presence within them.The only evidence by which Jesus said those outside the church would know who are his true disciples (besides the kind of life they live) is the love they have for one another. This still doesn’t amount to irresistible and undeniable “proof” of the gospel, his existence, or his resurrection.People will still be able to deny all of these—as many have in this answer feed. But that does not thwart God’s plan. Neither does it (contrary to popular belief) consign these (as yet) uncalled people to a fiery hell. Many of them will hear the true gospel for the first time in their lives when God (through his church) performs a “short work” on the earth prior to Christ’s revealing to the whole earth, when “every eye shall see him.”Very shortly, a warning will go out to all nations that will be heard by every person—from the heads of nations to the primitive peoples in the remotest jungles and islands.God does not now need and never has needed any man to “prove” his existence or power to any other man, woman or child. He is well able to prove his own existence and power. And at the appointed time, he will show himself to the whole world. Many won’t be happy to see him, because they will have heard the warnings and rejected them.Neither will God be happy either, but will come pouring out wrath on those who dismissed the evidence that will have accompanied the warnings—including how they had gone out to the whole world, which should have been a clue that something was going on they should have looked into.But God’s word says he will send “strong delusion” to those who refuse to even consider those things they will see that should have moved them in some way. There will be no excuse then, though some even today boast that, if God would give them evidence of his existence they will believe him.Of course, some will just have hardened their own hearts so much, they will blaspheme against God knowing he is “pleading with all flesh” through the wrath he is pouring out in hopes they will repent of them. And they will simply go too far and be destroyed in a horrifying death by fire.So, here’s the deal:Those who don’t “push the proof” do not because they cannot. Proof is not made of words, and they can’t show anyone God. Those to whom God has proven himself know better than to try, because, having been obedient to God, they “have a good understanding” and know better.They know the time is coming when the earth shall be “full of the knowledge of the Lord, as the waters cover the sea.” And this will be by God’s doing—not by the best arguments of men. And all the smug denials that fill this answer feed will be replaced either by a joyful surrender to God or by weeping and gnashing of teeth, consumed away into ashes.Related:Johnnie Lockett's answer to Does the lack of evidence for the existence of God constitute evidence of His non-existence?Johnnie Lockett's answer to If the existence of God can not be proven by available means known to man, does it disprove his existence?Johnnie Lockett's answer to Is the universe created or created physically?How To Prove God Exists Using a Scientific Method by Johnnie Lockett on PostsJohnnie Lockett's answer to Believers: do you KNOW that your god exists or do you only have faith that he does?Johnnie Lockett's answer to In philosophy, any epistemological (way of knowing things) claim carries a burden of proof to defend it; why don't Christian apologists take on that burden relating to their God claims?Johnnie Lockett's answer to What might be an effective way to make a theist understand the principle of falsifiability, and how important it is to their claims?Johnnie Lockett's answer to How come so many theists don't understand the difference between science and religion? Why don't they know the real meaning of the word proof and keep insisting that they can use the Bible or the Koran to prove something to me?Johnnie Lockett's answer to Why doesn't God provide scientific proof of his existence, because verifiable manifestations would solve so many problems?Footnotes[1] John chapter 6, KJV Online Bible[2] 1 Thessalonians chapter 5[3] 1 Peter chapter 3

Adolf Hitler never had a grave. He, along with his newly wedded wife, Eva Braun committed suicide on 30th April 1945, Hitler shooting himself in the head along with taking a cyanide capsule and Braun biting into a cyanide capsule. Afterwards their bodies were carried outside into the garden behind the Reich Chancellery, where petrol was poured over them and they were set alight, to avoid being captured by the Red Army.Records in the Soviet archives obtained after the fall of the Soviet Union state that the remains of Hitler, Braun, Joseph and Magda Goebbels, the six Goebbels children, General Hans Krebs, and Hitler's dogs were repeatedly buried and exhumed. On 4 April 1970, a Soviet KGB team used detailed burial charts to exhume five wooden boxes at the SMERSH facility in Magdeburg. The remains from the boxes were burned, crushed, and scattered into the Biederitz river, a tributary of the Elbe.

There are cases where people have had a near death event and learn “new information” that they were not aware of until the event. For example, Dr. Eben Alexander had a near death experience which he’s written about (“Proof of Heaven”) where during the event, he claimed that he was “guided” by a young woman that he felt he knew, but had no conscious memory of.Some months after his experience, the family that had put him up for adoption signNowed out to him (he was adopted) and revealed to him that he had a sister who has passed away before she was born, and sent him a photograph of her. He says that he recognized her from his near death event.A person he had never met in this lifetime, yet seem to know “over there” was someone who assisted him during the event.In Todd Burpo’s “Heaven is for Real” he claims that during his NDE he met his sister that he was not aware existed. When he came back from his NDE, he asked his parents about his sister. They were startled as they had never told him about his sister who had died in childbirth. Another example of new information from someone on the other side.I’ve been reporting a number of these in my various books, but suffice to say when you hear a “new piece of information” that you could not have known during your lifetime, it points to the fact that there is more than meets the eye when it comes to our experience with reality.